Thinking is dangerous...

[eternalflame4]

Well, I'm in one of those analyzing, thinking moods again. I can't help but worry about things. I wonder if there's a reason I'm on this earth, is there a certain mission for me? I thought it was to help people.. but I don't think so anymore.. How can I stand out from everyone else, and not be the "norm"? With school starting in about 17 days, I wonder how many migraines school will give me. I wonder if I can make these 2 years left that I have at BHS the best. I want to do well, show everyone what I can do. I'm known as having so much potential, but I never seem to fulfill that potential. My effort is great, but I don't deliver a stellar academic performance. I'm not happy with C's. I push myself so hard.. but then I end up getting shoved back. I tried to end my Sophomore year with good grades, and I did, but I felt like I didn't really earn them.. all my teachers pitied seeing me so sick and exhausted, they just let me slip by on a lot of tests and assignments. Half the work I missed while I was out, they told me don't bother to make up.. and come grading time, I end up a few points short of the honor roll for 4th term.. how did that happen? I barely did any work. I feel guilty because I got sick and I got away with not having to do barely any work for the rest of the year.

So.. this year, is going to be tougher, of course. Will I even pass MCAS? Doubtful, I KNOW I didn't pass the Math section, to save my life. I did the tutoring thing, for 8 weeks, didn't do much for me. How far will my drive get me? I have no idea..

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Cindy its Claffey, don't worry bout that stuff, your a teen just have some fun! but dont be a stoner like everyone else at our school! I understand that you wanna do good, we all do. Just try your hardest and if you ever need help don't be afraid to ask! Don't worry you'll find your place, it may not be in highschool, but we have our whole life in front of us, hopefully, you'll find it someday!! Well lataz!

***HUG***

[shoshiki.livejournal.com]

Hey sweetie!
You know that I will be here to help you with anything that you need.. And I will support you through the rest of your HS career!
I can't wait to talk more with you!
Love you!