eternalflame4

Dear Dad,

When you moved out, you promised that nothing would change with our relationship. You promised that no one would come between you and me, because we were special. Sure you kept up those promises, and made even more. You bought me whatever I wanted at the time, took me out to eat every time I was with you. You seemed still like the same old person.

But suddenly you told me you were moving to Australia. You told me I could come visit. I did visit you but I felt that you had changed so dramatically that you weren't the same dad anymore. Again, you bought me whatever I wanted and showered me with hugs and kisses. Somehow it didn't seem to matter anymore as I was starting to become numb. You kept up the promises but never fulfilled them. Like you hugs and kisses, they were just empty gestures. Sometimes the thought doesn't always count, and actions always do speak louder than words.

If you were here with me today, would you be proud of what I accomplished? Or if/when I did see you again and you were to hug me, would I even feel anything? Do you still love me or even think about me? Right now I feel the same way that I did almost 10 years ago, empty- and you haven't done anything to help that.