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Is there anyone still out there in LJ land? I do still read my friend's list, even if its dwindled down significantly. I know when Facebook came out things started to taper down, and recently I've heard something about LJ being sold to a Russian company? So I'm not quite sure how that affects LJ, so I'm curious if anyone knows anything about that?

There's a few people who have deleted/purged journals that I've been thinking about lately and wondering where they are now?

I also went back and read some of my old posts recently- holy cow I've grown up a lot since 2002!Then again I was 16 years old...but LJ captured a lot of the issues/angst/feelings/stories of me coming into adulthood. I still do not fully feel like adult at 31, but I imagine that'll come with time.

I've now been married for about a year and a half, jumped around to different jobs a little, adopted a dog and have started house hunting. Life has become a lot more mundane, but I figure that is what happens as an adult.

So what is new with all of you? I know I'm friend's with a few people on Facebook but there are still a lot out there that I am not.

I even updated my userpic to a picture that's is a year old. I think I still look the same as I did when I was 22. ;)
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Where does one even begin when you haven't update LJ in almost 2 years? First of all, I know I live in New England but holy cow enough with the snow! We are supposed to get another 12-18 inches this weekend and I truly believe I can speak for most of the people in New England when I say that I am SO over it. Can we at least get decent temperatures that can melt all this stuff? But not too quickly please, I don't want to see swimming pools and flooding everywhere.

Onto updates!

This month marks my 13th anniversary with LiveJournal. .

I will try to go back and update since my last entry was regarding the Boston Marathon bombing in April 2013.

After a year and a half of working for United Health Care I took a job for Blue Cross/Blue Shield of Massachusetts in May 2014, working in Medicare Compliance. It's truly unlike any job I've had. Long hours, intense work, and a job where I truly learn something new every day. I'm really tired of changing jobs and do really enjoy working for BCBS so I hope to stay here for a long time. I've worked for far too many companies since 2007. My resume is probably downright scary now with all the jobs I've previously had. I've stayed in Health Care, completed my degree in Health Management a few years ago at Northeastern University, and am trying to settle into more of a "career" mindset rather than just chasing money. I can't believe I'm coming up on a year with BCBS already. I'm probably going to say this a few times in this entry but I cannot believe how fast time goes now.

My Father died in January 2014. Unfortunately he died two weeks after he called to tell me what was going on. As soon as he told me, I immediately made plans to go to Australia but was jumping through the hoops of taking a leave of absence from United. Part of the reason I started job hunting last year included the grief they gave me while trying to take a leave of absence. I was perfectly fine with going unpaid, I had just wanted my job to be there when I returned. I recognize that they have processes and procedures for these things, but going through the FMLA process was next to impossible with my father's doctors being in Australia, and their HIPPA laws are much tougher than we have here in the US. He passed away while I was gathering the information needed for my leave of absence. Ultimately another director who knew me well, but worked in another department was horrified by what I went through. He believed that I should have just been allowed to take a regular leave of absence and that would be that. United had two levels of LOA- FMLA and a straight up emergency leave of absence. I did meet the requirements for the emergency LOA, but its ultimately at the director level discretion. Should I have taken it higher up in the organization? Sure, but I was in a complete fog and just kept running into wall after wall trying to put everything together.

I had not kept in touch with him a lot over the past few years, just occasional emails and phone calls. I kick myself all the time that we weren't in touch more. I had forgiven him for everything that happened since he moved to Australia in 2000/2001, and I did tell him that before he passed away so I hope he is in peace with that.

I'm still working through all the feelings and emotions and will continue to do so for a long time. I thought I had known about grieving before his passing, but it was a whole new level with it being my father and our very complicated past.

The past couple years have not just been full of sadness and job change, there have been many, many happy things as well.

I'm getting married! Wayne asked me to marry him last August, and our wedding is this October in Gloucester, MA. We currently live in Dedham, MA and have been here since March 2014. I moved from Somerville with many tearful goodbyes to my roommates, and thankful for all the fun times I had with them and living in the Boston area. I'm not terribly far from Boston, maybe about 20 minutes without traffic but far from any of the subway lines, which is not a bad thing right now because they really aren't working well. At all. Neither is our commuter rail. Buses have pretty much replaced the subways at this point and entire stretches of tracks have not been cleared yet. I am very thankful that I drive to my office, or work from home. Yesterday was my first time back in the office in two weeks thanks to this crazy weather.

As if moving, new job, engagement wasn't enough I had to add a cherry on top of the cake.

In October, I had weight loss surgery. I had the gastric sleeve, and am so thankful that I did it. My life is a "new normal" and I have a different relationship with food and exercise now. My hope is to break the stigma that I see and hear about weight loss surgery, that we're lazy, looking for a quick fix, that we will never change no matter what we do.

I'm addicted to food. I turned to food during all the bad times in life, the good times, and the in between times. I'm still working on that, but like any addict it takes time. I don't want to say "I was addicted", because I do believe I still am. Weight loss surgery isn't just physical changes, you have to be ready, prepared and open to make mental changes as well. I work out more than I ever have (although mostly at home these days!), and truly am conscious of everything I put in my mouth. Another part of this journey is getting fluids in. I drank a ton of Diet Pepsi before surgery and I've traded it in for water and G2. I also am not allowed to touch alcohol until the 6 month mark, and even then I will need to have an extensive conversation with my team. My team includes my surgeon, his PA's, and Nutritionists. Alcohol addiction is a problem in people who have had weight loss surgery, trading the food for drinking. It's also a lot of calories just to take in via liquid form, so they try to steer us away from that. I'm going to be honest and say that there are plenty of times that I wish I could just have a glass of wine, but I'm happy to say that I have completely resisted.

Phew. I think I've covered the big things.

As I said on New Year's Eve on Facebook, I've been told that you aren't supposed to make major life changes within a year of a death of a loved one. I moved, changed jobs, got engaged and had weight loss surgery and I am incredibly happy that I did all of those things. I am a lucky, lucky girl.

Stay tuned! I know I've always said I want to get back in LJ but really want to make the effort.

I'm sorry this was so long, but thank you for reading. :)

Love,

Cindy
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So the last time I posted was almost exactly 6 months ago, to the day. I was in shock and horrifed by the Boston Marathon bombings, and thinking back to that frighting week brings back many memories.

So where am I now? (sorry in advance for the lack of cut, my LJ skills are lacking)

-I've been working in health care now since 2009, and have been working for United Health Care since November of last year. I cannot believe almost a year has gone by, time really does fly as you get older.

-Speaking of older, just celebrated my 28th birthday this past weekend surrounded by friends and the love of my life. (seriously, for real and it's not Jeff)

-Five months ago I met Wayne, and I haven't been the same since. I know everyone here on LJ has seen my ups and down through the craziness of love and relationships, but I think I finally met my match and I don't indend on letting him go. He's turned my world upside down in the best way possible

-I've been living in Somerville for the past couple of years and love the area. Living with roommates but I'm hoping to move out sometime next year on my own. I still cannot get over the rent prices in my area, it's bonkers. However, I work somewhat in the area as well so I would like to try to stay put.

-Met all my awesome Boston friends through Social Boston Sports; their intermural leauges and parties. I'm captain of a bowling team, yo.

-Been through many ups and downs with my family in PA/NJ, my mom and step-father's health the last few years, especially with their health the last 3. Thankfully, they are both well now and the homefront has quieted down.

-February 2014 will mark my 12 year anniversary on LJ. Craziness. Reading the old entries from when I was still in HS is a life lesson within itself.

-I still find my life boring so I don't know if I can be someone who journals frequently, but I do read livejournal at least once a week to see what is going on out there.

-I would like to take Bren up on the October journaling challenge. I think it would provide a different kind of update besides a regular journal entry. I'll look into it this week and see if I can catch up.

-Finally I should post a recent picture on here, the current one is circa 2007.
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I've been sitting here for the last 20 minutes trying to figure out what to write.

I live in Somerville, which is just a few short miles from the Boston Marathon finish line. Less than 10 I believe, but not entirely sure. I was at work yesterday in Waltham when I heard the news. Yesterday afternoon into late last night I was in a state of shock because of the horrific events. My evening was spent frantically texting/facebook messaging and a few precious phone calls to friends and family all over the world checking on them, and letting them know I was OK. My mind was so full when I tried to go to bed, I only grabbed a couple hours of sleep.

The outpouring of love and concern was overwhelming and I am so thankful to everyone that checked in with me. I'm still incredibly saddened by what happened, and I pray for not only the victims and their families but for our law enforcement, fire fighters, paramedics, EMT's, nurses, doctors, first responders, volunteers, and so on.

Today I'm still incredibly emotional as most people are- and still in a state of shock. Work has been a struggle today, but I'm glad I'm here surrounded by people.

My mom- the reason why I'm in healthcare today has been a nurse at two different Boston hospitals, and currently works at one of the 4 major ones. She's been there for the last 15+ years, and prior to that she was at Mass General Hospital for 20 years. Yes, my mom has been a nurse for almost 40 years which is astounding to me.

My roommate of the last year and a half, who is like an older brother to be is a Somerville Police Officer.

I'm thankful for what they do everyday, but even more so yesterday.

I had to come on here to say something, and although it may not make a ton of sense, I'm glad I did.

Please keep Boston in your thoughts and prayers during this difficult time, and thank you to all for your support for our incredible city.

Much Love,

Cindy
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I belong to the very first LJ sorority. [livejournal.com profile] lambda_iota_nu We are beginning a brand new pledge week on September 5th. So, go to the community information page, and check the few open posts to find out if it would be something you'd enjoy. I love it. We do charity work, gab via IM and phone with our sisters, we have movie nights, do package swaps, and more. The friends I've made in this sorority are some of the very best- and have been my friends for over 5 years. They are there for me whenever I need them.

There is an entry, should you decide to join, in which you must state your intent to join, followed by a 1-2 paragraph essay on what sisterhood means to you.



I am SO glad I joined, and I'm looking forward to things to come. Any questions, just holler!

Part II

May. 29th, 2010 04:21 am
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Ok, lets try this again shall we?

Thanks to my wonderful (and sometimes not so wonderful) pain meds, I've been keeping a very odd schedule of sleeping during the day and night. Unfortunately the pain is still so bad that I have to keep taking them every 4 hours, so this doesn't allow me much sleepy time. I'm really ready to give the constant pain a break, but what can you do- I went through 2 surgeries in one day, and its only post-op day 4.

So, like I said I had my tonsils removed and my deviated septum fixed this past Tuesday. I don't remember a lot of my time in the hospital, but maybe thats not a bad thing. I did spend the night in the hospital after surgery for observation. From what I do remember, it was a really rough night as I was woken up every couple of hours by someone wanting to take my vitals, rounding residents, med time, etc. I remember being very thankful to leave, and have been spending the past few days at my mom's recovering and resting. I don't think I will be heading home before my post-op exam with the surgeon on Wednesday, hoping to return to work on Thursday.

The whole experience can be summed up as "ow". I'd been told that I would have the worst sore throat of my life, but I hadn't expected it to feel like this. I have to constantly drink fluids to keep my throat moist, and if I don't the pain is unbelievable. Of course the little sleep I do get here and there, I end up waking up in pain because I'm not quite breathing through my nose yet- so my mouth stays open when I sleep. I'm working on that.

But I keep telling myself that this pain is worth it- the ability to sleep through the night, to breathe better and to finally feel rested. I do admit that the sleep I do get has been pretty deep, as I was such a light sleeper before.

Now for the juicy stuff! I've been seeing someone from eHarmony for the past couple months now. He's a wonderful guy who unfortunately lives 2 hours away in central NH. We don't see each other as often as we'd like but we've had some amazing weekends come out of it. We've spent a weekend in Boston, long weekend at the beach in Gloucester and I spent last weekend at his beautiful home that he just built a few years ago. He's been a huge support system through my surgery, sending flowers, checking up on me, etc. I spoke to him last night but overdid it by taking too long, so I'm paying now in pain. I'll have to give the phone thing a break for another day or two I think.

So that's pretty much it for now, I know this entry isn't the most organized but I knew I was overdue to update. I'm always on facebook, so you can always find me there. :)

Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend! I'm going to celebrate with my red jello!
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I had planned on making a post right now bringing everyone up to date on the happenings of my life. For those who follow me on FB know that I had surgery on Tuesday to have my tonsils removed, as well as my deviated septum fixed. Well I'm up right now because I was almost an hr and a half late on my pain meds, and am paying dearly for it now. I'm staying with my mom and her husband so she can help me out with medication time, however through no fault of her own it looks like she overslept and hence I almost missed a dose. I've offered to help by setting an alarm for myself but she had wanted me to sleep. Waking up in pain and unable to say anything, or call for help isn't fun but I managed.

Now its almost been an hr since taking my pain med so I'm a little too loopy for a coherent post. I will update sometime in the near future, a lot has been going on.

Until then, back to my medicine coma.

-sorry if this didn't make much sense, I have a feeling I'll be laughing at it later.
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"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"- Dr. Seuss

Also, Happy Mothers Day to all the Mom's out there!

-I'll most more later and I promise I won't be so cryptic. ;)
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Oh. My. God. Did last night actually happen? I feel like I’m in a bad reality tv show.

I’ll back up a bit because its been forever since I’ve updated.

After 7 months of giving everything I had, and being the best girlfriend I thought I could be, Steve ended our relationship at the end of January. The reason? He didn’t love me, and didn’t have any feelings for me beyond being a best friend. We went out to dinner the week after it happened, and I asked him a few questions- did I do anything wrong, what made you want to stop trying, etc. We haven’t spoken since. I don’t know how to approach a friendship with him after the kind of relationship that we had.

Needless to say I managed to go out with a guy last night who I had briefly dated last summer, before Steve. The evening ended in disaster and I don’t know what to do or where to go from here.

We arranged via e-mail to meet for dinner last night, which went really well- and I had asked him if he was seeing anyone, and he said no he wasn’t- he had dated a few girls but none could really understand his schedule, and if there’s anything I’ve mastered its dealing with wacky schedules. Working full time, on top of being a full time student I had completely understood. He was a dental student in his final year at Boston University.

After dinner I had suggested that we go for a walk along the river since it was so nice out, even after the sun had gone down. The Charles River runs behind his apartment so I figured it was the perfect spot for a walk, and we could keep talking.

The walk also was a lot of fun, as we got to spend more time catching up- since nearly a year had passed since we had last spoken. We went back to his apartment and kept talking, sitting on the couch.

Then suddenly his apartment buzzer goes off. He said to ignore it, since it was someone probably just trying to get into the building. I understood that as people have rang my buzzer at weird hours too. The buzzer went off a second time, this time much longer. So he decided to see who it was, and I hear this girl’s voice- “it’s me”, she said. He then told me that the girl was someone he had dated briefly, and she was a bit crazy. I didn’t want to get into any confrontation so I decided to leave through the back door. I had no idea what was going on but he thanked me for being understanding and said he’d call me later.

As I’m about to go down into the subway station, my phone rang. It was him, and he was saying that I need you to talk to her about our recent breakup. (whaaaa?!?!) I was tired, confused, and just wanted to get home so I said ok, I’ll say hi and talk to her. She gets on the phone saying that the guy is an awesome boyfriend (again- whaaaa?!?!) and she didn’t understand why I didn’t want to stay and meet her, why did I go out the back door, was I trying to hide something, etc. She knew I was there apparently because he lives in a basement apartment and the windows were open, so she could hear us talking.

I explained to her that we were only friends now and had made plans for dinner. I said that I didn’t want to get into a confrontation that evening and that is why I left out the back. I wrapped up the conversation quickly saying I had an early morning meeting and I had to get home. However I asked to speak to him before she hung up and I said to him “I think you forgot to tell me something”. He mumbled something like “uh huh”, and he said he’d call me later.

I got on the subway to head home with just the worst feeling in my stomach. I don’t even remember the ride home, and then I drove home from the station. Don’t remember any part of that either.

I was up all night replaying the evening in my head to see if I had missed something.

Why would he:
1) tell me he isn’t seeing anyone
2) want to hang out after dinner, taking a walk and heading back to his place

Its now almost 3pm the next day and I’ve yet to hear a peep from him.

If I had known that he had a girlfriend I just would have ended the evening at dinner and gone home. However, since the night seemed to be going so well I wanted to hang out a little bit longer.

What gets me the worst is that he said he wasn’t seeing anyone. If there’s one thing I hate in this world its being lied to.

So- do I just chalk this up as give up and never speak to him again? If he’s going to contact me I’d think he’d do it sometime today to apologize. If I don’t hear from him by the end of the week for sure- I will just move on from this and try to forget about it, because I never want to go through a night like that again.
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"Uphill both ways, barefoot" Hm. I struggled with what to write about this week and have totally put it off until the last minute. I didn't know whether or not to go about this by writing fiction or writing from the heart. I have found that in beginning this competition that although my entries may be sad, they're actually therapeutic for me. Like I said in the past I've finally started to come to terms about my life growing up, and it amazes me to see how much I've done, and even though times got tough- I always found a way through the darkness into the sunshine.

I've often said that my life is a roller coaster, and that totally goes along with the theme of "Uphill both ways, barefoot", because a roller coaster can be just like that.

One of the biggest things that I've struggled with in the last few years is the death of my best friend's mom 2 years ago, actually two years exactly next week. My best friend (Kim) and I met in middle school, and we were in the high school marching, concert, and jazz bands together. We also sang in the school's choir. With my mom being a single parent in meant that she had to often work long hours and I would often to over to Kim's house after school, or after band practice. We had this tradition of getting all "glammed" up for our concerts and performances together, always at her house. Her mom (Lauren) truly was my rock, and the mom that I needed in my life, the mom that I was missing. Going through the tough teenage years is hard, but going at it alone makes it even worse. She took me shopping, taught me to drive, and listened to anything and everything I had to say no matter how crazy it was. She didn't just listen, she gave advice too- some advice that I still go by each day, and when I do- I always feel that "pang" of sadness.

All though our high school years, Lauren had breast cancer. She was a true survivor in every definition of the word. She beat the cancer 3 times! Each time kicking it completely in the butt. But in early 2007, it was back- and it started to take her entire body with it. After a long, long battle she passed away on November 4, 2007. I will never forget the days leading up to her passing, and I'm still haunted when I think about being there when she took her last breath. No matter what I believe about heaven, if there truly is one she is there- and I know she's smiling down on all of us. But sometimes even though I find comfort in the fact that she is no longer in pain, I still find myself wanting to call her, or go visit her at home. When I got my job, met my amazing boyfriend, finally starting to patch up my family- she was the first one I wanted to tell. I'm sure she knows exactly what is going on with me- and I hope I've made my "mom" proud. I love you Lauren, and I miss you everyday.

So all the pain, and all the joy- it's like going uphill, both ways- barefoot.
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Dear Dad,

When you moved out, you promised that nothing would change with our relationship. You promised that no one would come between you and me, because we were special. Sure you kept up those promises, and made even more. You bought me whatever I wanted at the time, took me out to eat every time I was with you. You seemed still like the same old person.

But suddenly you told me you were moving to Australia. You told me I could come visit. I did visit you but I felt that you had changed so dramatically that you weren't the same dad anymore. Again, you bought me whatever I wanted and showered me with hugs and kisses. Somehow it didn't seem to matter anymore as I was starting to become numb. You kept up the promises but never fulfilled them. Like you hugs and kisses, they were just empty gestures. Sometimes the thought doesn't always count, and actions always do speak louder than words.

If you were here with me today, would you be proud of what I accomplished? Or if/when I did see you again and you were to hug me, would I even feel anything? Do you still love me or even think about me? Right now I feel the same way that I did almost 10 years ago, empty- and you haven't done anything to help that.

Thank you!

Oct. 16th, 2009 09:31 am
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Hi Everyone,

To everyone who commented on my LJ Idol entry- thank you so much! The words of encoragement were incredible and I was truly moved by them. I thought that I could just quietly participate and no one would notice- nope!

I will be friending you all soon and will read all of your entries as well, playing catchup this weekend.

Again thank you so much and I look forward to writing more, as well as reading more.

Happy Friday!!

Cindy
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I have always, always hated talking about myself. While I was interviewing for my current job I found it was SO difficult to say how wonderful I was, and how awesome of I fit I would be for the company. Needless to say as you can see from above they hired me. I have never been happier and more content with my life than I am right now. My one issue is still being worked on, but I realize it isn’t something that is going to happen overnight.

The basics. My name is Cindy and I’m 24, living in a town about 5 miles outside of Boston. I also work in the same town- working in enrollment and premium billing for a health insurance company. I’m still in college, finishing my Bachelor’s Degree in Healthcare Management at Northeastern University. I have a wonderful boyfriend, Steven that I met through eHarmony. He’s my rock, and an amazing person. Ok, I’m done with the mushy stuff.

I have always enjoyed writing all throughout school, and still do to this day. I’ve always wanted to write a book about my life up until this point- wanting to show that there is in fact a happily ever after. What would the book be about? Well, to sum it up in short when I was 12 my parents got divorced. But it was more than that. My father had left my my mom for a woman he had never met who lived in Australia. I have not spoken to him in 10 years. Living with my mom was an everyday struggle, and she’s still the major issue in my life. We’ve never had a typical mother-daughter relationship, and I believe its because of how her parents raised her. She did not even attend her own mother’s funeral 6 years ago. Ten years ago she shut out her entire family for no reason, and refused to talk about why she did so. Recently within the last few months I have reconnected with my family, and just got back from seeing them this past weekend. A lot of questions about my mom, and my family are still unanswered but some things may never be answered. My book would talk about the struggle of finding your own place in the world, your own identity and the relationships with the people around you. A memoir I suppose you could call it. Would it ever sell any books? Probably not but I want to still write it anyway to show what I can do, and I believe it can help with the healing process.

I revealed a lot about my life in just a few paragraphs but I am so excited to be joining in this competition and I look forward to reading everyone else’s writing!
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Joining [livejournal.com profile] therealljidol, because I feel like my writing chops need to be used!
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This may bore some but I figured I'd share, (also I need to get the "how I was laid off" story off my chest because its still bothering me..)

This is what I have accomplished this week (April 5-11)

*Interviews with Recruiters (temp and perm) on Monday and Wednesday

*Applied to about 15 different positions in the Boston area via monster/craigslist (live on edge of city)

*Posted new resume on Monster and Craig's list

*Applied to CVS & Target

*Had interview with CVS on Friday for 16 hrs a week part time and just waiting on the results of my "backround check" (*rolls eyes* that Secret clearance is doing me NO good right about now..) Should hear back from manager by Wed- he loved me so I may be in training as early as Thurs/Fri of this upcoming week

*Filed for unemployment- been hearing tons of horror stories that there's a three month backlog of people waiting for their first check

*Watched wayyyyy too much trashy tv/movies

*Slept too much!

So I'm waiting to hear back on Target, CVS and other Recruiters. Have an interview with a 3rd one on Wed @ 2pm.

Aaaand tomorrow I'm being forced to do a major spring cleaning of the apt by the roommate...argggg hate cleaning!

Ok that's it for now- hope everyone is doing well!
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Hi All!

I'm getting ready for my first interview with a recruiter...you may be wondering why? Well I was let go from my job at the Government Contractor on Friday. I'm already doing all I can to get another job as I was only given my final paycheck and thats it. I cannot file for unemployment till Friday because my past employer hasn't told the state that I don't work there anymore..*sigh* And when I do finally get signed up for unemployment there is at least an 8 week backup before getting the first check. Soooo...since I have rent to pay I better get my butt in gear!

The actual "letting go" part from the former job was so cold. I had expected more from them, but then again the Government is quite cold. They are very picky as to who they have working for them, they have to be a certain "type" of person- and quite frankly I wasn't as tough as everyone. Just about everyone was former military, or had experience with the Government prior to working for the Contractor. (cannot say the name of the company due to Security reasons)

So I'll chalk it up that it was good experience and even though its a crappy time to be out of work, I'm confident that my skills and awesome charm will prevail- and land me another job, hopefully quickly.

So I will be using this journal to document the progress, stay tuned!
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..when you're nursing a broken heart.

So Jeff broke up with me over Thanksgiving. It's been very hard and with the help of therapy I've finally started to feel human again.

The week before X-Mas I was laid off from Questex, however I now work for a Government contractor in Burlington, about a half hour from me. I handle AP, AR and Payroll amongst other things. It's actually quite interesting, however I hate not being able to talk about my job! Working there isn't a typical office environment, its something completely different- a job that you have to really, truly watch every little thing you do, and make sure it's perfect or there are some serious repercussions. The job isn't actually hard- its just working with certain people that make it hard.

Currently I'm not even working because I was just diagnosed with Mono. Some of you may remember I had it back in 2002, but sure enough its back. It's not as bad as the first time but the exhaustion is sometimes hard to deal with. I do not know when I'll be returning and I just completed the paperwork for short term disability. So hopefully I'll be back on my feet soon- but the doctors won't let me return to work for awhile.

Still in Watertown, with the same roommate.

I wanted you all to know that I still read my Flist several times a day, like I know that Bren got a new pink laptop. (and give Loki a kiss for me!)

I've had a hard time trying to write everything down and I'm still not there yet, but know that I am infact here, and reading everyday. I will write more when I can, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon!

I love you all and thanks for all your support while I'm finding myself again. I've never really been single since I was 16- so its a whole new world to me.

xoxo

Cindy

Kitty!

Aug. 13th, 2008 04:55 pm
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Meet my kitty Fenway! :)

Dead On..

Apr. 21st, 2008 07:39 pm
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Weird..



Your Personality at 35,000 Says...



Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking.



You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are.



Your gift is having a way with words. You know how to express yourself well.



You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you.



It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

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